This is the longest I’ve been single in my adult life. Possibly, considerably rude I tell a friend, “I LIVE A LONE HOW DO I DO THIS.” He responded he has been doing that for years now. Oop.
I’ve never lived alone. Even without a relationship. I have three younger sisters. There was never not alone. I am the first child in this family to live on her own.
And, to be honest, I’m freaking the fuck out. I do have the advantage that my sister lives next door. So, I shouldn’t be freaking out that terribly. You know?
But overall, I freaked out — cussed out and said some terrible things to the ex. I still call him my boyfriend and when we end conversations I still end with, “Love you.” because well, to be honest, I do still. But it’s a habit.
When I first did it .. last Friday I bawled my eyes out as I hung up. Currently, I filed for unemployment which is still under pending.
I’ve had more than enough job interviews this week. I’m trying to get money in. LIKE COME ON LIFE GET WITH IT.